Why I Made My OnlyFans Account and Body Positivity

Transcribed from the episode recorded on August 29, 2023

Okay, everyone, welcome back to this week's episode. I am finally back after taking a brief hiatus to get my office set up, work on school, and also my content. So that is exciting. I am going to switch gears a little bit this week, and instead of giving tips, tricks, and advice, and telling a whole bunch of stories that I have encountered throughout the week, I have decided that this week I am going to talk about why I became a creator, what I like about it, and what I don't like about it. So let's get into that.

So, one of the main reasons that I decided to start my OnlyFans was to actually boost my own self-confidence. I was not the most body-confident, throughout high school, I have and still do struggle with body issues, and decided that I was going to make an account to try and work on those issues. And while making the account, I realized that there are people out there who like what my body looks, like and would pay to see it and that there are people out there, who are super successful, who look like my body type. Currently, I have almost 400 fans on my free account, which I mainly use to promote my account, and I've had my free account since June of this year. So that's pretty big for me because I didn't think I was going to get that many people. And I still don't have a lot of buyers, most of my buyers are from snap, but even I still don't have a lot. But it really means a lot to me, that people go and they look at my body and compliment me, and actually helped me find my niche, which for the longest time I didn't know what to put it at. And within the last few weeks, I thought, “Well, a lot of people have been talking about I'm in college, or like I'm super petite”. So I said, “I'm just going to make it a petite college student and just work with that”.

Now, another reason that I decided to make my account was because I needed just a little bit of money. All I really have to pay are small little bills, and I was in the process of getting ready to move, and a lot of places around me aren't hiring. And I needed something where I could make a little bit of cash. So this month alone, between the end of July to August, between both my accounts, Snapchat and Instagram, I made, I believe, around $305, which isn't that bad. That's probably about the average person's part-time weekly paycheck, but in the end, money's money. You know, some days you get a whole lot, some days you don't. I've had one day where I made maybe almost 100 bucks, and then didn't make any money for, like two weeks. It happens, you know. I actually kind of like that, because I don't have to worry every single day about making a whole bunch of content, or worrying if I'm going to have to make any if I'm super busy. And I always let the person know, “Hey, just so you know, like, I have a whole bunch of stuff that I got to do. You should get it by the end of the day. If not the end of the day, the end of the week, you know, please be patient. Don't pester me with ‘When you're sending it when you're sending it’”. I let them know that I will get it sent as soon as I possibly can. I had one person for their birthday, typically I give them a free week trial to my paid account. He was already subscribed to it, so I ended up just letting him know, “Hey, you can get, you know, a piece of content”. And I've been super busy the last few days, you know, in the process of getting my office put together and doing school. And he's been texting me the last few days like, “Hey, when are you to going to get it done? When are you going to get done? When is it done?”, whatever, whatever. And every single day I let him know, “Hey, it may get done by the end of today. It may get done by the end of the week. I have a whole bunch of content I'm making, whether it's customs or my own personal stuff”, and I just let them know, “Hey, please be patient. You know, you will receive it. Like, don't worry, I won't forget about you”. I have a list of who's getting what, how much they paid for it. If they haven't paid for it yet, to send them a quick text and be like, “Hey, you know, in able for me to make this, you do have to pay for it”. And I don't like to push people, but sometimes when it does come to stuff like that, I kind of do. If they say they want something but they can't pay for it just yet, you know, I'll say, “Hey, the day you can pay for it, send me the money or send me a message and let me know and I will get that done for you”.

Honestly, the other reason why I made my account was just to make it. I was just like, “You know, fuck it, I'm going to make one”. Some people have motives like the money or the looks, and that's why they want to make their account. And that's completely fine. I did it because I fucking wanted to do it. And, you know, it helped me build my confidence and honestly, it got me to make some money. And as much hard work as it is, this is probably one of the easiest jobs that I've had, and the job before this, was literally me just sitting in a hair salon on my phone, washing hair and washing towels and like, cleaning up. Like, that job was super easy. But for me, this is even easier because I have my own schedule. When I was there, I had to, you know, take a bus to get to work, and I had to leave like an hour and a half before my shift even started. And then I'm the one that had to unlock the store, or the salon and, you know, make the coffee and fold all the towels fresh and make sure, you know, the owner had her cup of coffee, and a cup of water next to her desk and make sure, you know, the sinks and everything are cleaned, and the bathroom is clean. And then, you know, making sure that like the floor was swept. And that was all before we even opened. And then I would have to, you know, answer phone calls, book appointments, you know, confirm appointments, wash people's hair, like do towels throughout the day, and then, like closing, I had to make sure everything was clean, like, everything was all set for the next day. Like, it was a super easy job because I wasn't busy the entire time. I literally got to sit on my phone. But it was a scheduled job. Like, I make my own fucking schedule. I make probably as much as I would make in a month here than I would in like, a week there. Like, I don't really care much about the money, but I like it because I get to do what I want to do and that's all that should really fucking matter to you.

One thing that you will always, always, always, always, always hear me talk about is body positivity, whether it was in previous podcasts or in upcoming ones, including this one. Body positivity is such a huge thing to me. Whether you are confident in your body or not, it is beautiful, you know. And I'm not super religious, but I love telling people God made your body a blank slate, and it is up to you to finish the painting, or the portrait, or whatever it is. You know, I have artwork on my body, I plan on getting more. I plan on getting, hopefully maybe, getting enhancement surgery. I have a piercing and hopefully getting more like whatever. He made my body how He made it, and it's up to me to complete it, whether it takes a day, to months, to years, decades or whatever, until I am satisfied with how it looks. And I love that. I think everyone should really, really think about that. Even if you're not a religious person, you know, your body was made how it was made, and it's up to you to finish making it, to make it until you are confident in yourself. And I tell people, you know, “I don't care if your nose is crooked, you're still fucking beautiful, you're still handsome. You know, you can still make some make some sh-money”. You know, I've had people tell me that they don't want to make an account because they don't like the way their face looks. And to that, I tell them, “Hey, you know, do some makeup or, you know, edit your face a little bit so it's not super noticeable or shit. If you've got a bangin' body, just be a faceless creator, you know, like there are people who will fucking love you for just that, you know, even if you got a fucking crooked nose or whatever”. And I actually have never received any type of message, like any type of hate message - not even like a hate message, but a comment on my body in a negative way - until the other day, which was super surprising to me, because this guy had bought my stuff, and I, you know, sent it to him. And the first thing he said was like, “Oh, like, do your nipples always look like that?”. Like, you know, they're a little crooked. They're not fucking perfect, I'm sorry. You know, God didn't make them perfect, that's on him. It's up to me to fix that, if I choose to. And I just, you know, went back at him with like, a smart remark. And I was like, “Oh, like my bathroom was cold”, you know, like, you can tell I'm in a bathroom. My bathroom was cold. If someone says something about your body and you don't like it after they buy content, whatever, honestly, just give them a smart remark. But, you know, still be kind of nice about it. Or just don't even answer that. Like, you don't need that negativity in your life. I've had, you know, multiple comments about my body before I made content and I would do the same thing. I didn't care. I'd be like, “You know what? Fuck you like, my body is mine. I love it for how it is”. And up until that day, I've only ever gotten positive, you know, “Oh, like you're so petite. Like your body is so cute. Like, oh, like, you know, I love how, you know, proportioned you are”, or something like that. Like, that really fucking hit me when that guy said that. But then I was like, “You know what? That doesn't fucking matter because I got a man at home who fucking loves how my body looks. And I got, you know, 3 or 400 people online who love how my fucking body looks, like, you do not matter. You are in the 1% of people who do not like how my body looks like. Come on”. I will always preach body positivity no matter what you look like. If you are thin, if you are thick, if you know, you are an amputee, like whatever. I will always say that you are beautiful and that is all that matters. That is all that matters is that you think you are beautiful and that someone else does too. And even if you don't think you do, there is always someone who will think that you are beautiful for you.

Another thing that I do besides preaching body positivity is being confident in how your face looks, whether you've got acne or you got facial scars or, you know, whatever. I am someone who like, you know, there are some people who post, you know, the raw footage of when they filmed their content, you know, no makeup, whatever. And then there are the people who will wear a bunch of makeup or will edit their pictures. I'm, you know, a happy medium. I edit every single picture that I take, whether it's just adding makeup on or just a blurring effect, I edit every single picture. I'm pretty sure I've only ever posted raw pictures like once and - yeah, actually, yeah only time I'm pretty sure I ever posted a raw picture that didn't use a snap filter, or any type of makeup, or any type of smoothing effect, was one time. Like, that's fine. Be confident in yourself. If you're more confident with a filter on, or with a whole bunch of makeup, or with like FaceTune, like, good for you. If you're more confident bare-faced, raw, unedited pictures, good for you, Like everyone is different. And I will preach that to the fucking high heavens. Again, you are you. You are perfect as you are. And you are perfect as how you want to be, you know? There are some days where I will make content at 3 in the morning, like this morning, and I will do a full face of makeup. And then there are the days where I'm rushing, so I, you know, put on the outfit and do it bare-face, and fucking edit the makeup on after, you know. Like you do you, whatever makes you happy, you fucking do, and don't let anyone fucking stop you. And I'm also so open to people about if I edit my pictures if someone, you know, gets a picture of me and they go, “Is this edited?”, I'll be like, “Fuck yeah it is like, I used a blurring effect. Does that really, really bother you that much?”. I had one person add me from Wizz, and all my pictures on there are mainly snap filters, and then maybe like, 1 or 2 pictures of just my makeup. And he asked, “Oh, what do you look like?”, and I sent him a snap, and he was like, “Bro like, you're like a catfish’. And I was like, “No, I'm not”. And he was like,” Bro, you look nothing like your profile”. And I told him, “Dude, I'm sorry that it's 3 a.m. and I'm not wearing fucking makeup.”, and he was like, “Well, all the other girls that I've seen, like, you know, they actually look like what they look like, with makeup on”. And I told him, I was like, “First off, listen, the picture that I had makeup on in, it was like show makeup”. Like I was going somewhere. That was like, not my normal everyday makeup. I will, you know, class it up. I will make it look, honestly, the best way to describe it, is slutty as fuck. You know, I’ll do the fucking black eyeliner, you know, in my fucking waterline, and my fucking heavy-ass contour, that I blend the fucking shit to. Like my normal makeup, I look like myself. And I told him, I was like, “A lot of those girls”, I said, “Are either always using snap filters, or they are naturally gorgeous, or you just only see them when they have their makeup on. Like, I'm not one of those people”. People on my snap story, I've only ever posted pictures, like, with a filter on my snap story, but the people that snap me have seen me without my makeup on. I have one person like every single day he'll snap me, you know, and I’ll send a picture of like the side of my face, and he'll be like, “Let me see your fucking beautiful, you know, bare ass face”. Like you got people out there who love you, for your bare face, and that is all that should matter. All that should matter is that you, and other people, absolutely love how your face looks. At the end of the day, that is really all that fucking matters. Whether you post raw footage, or you post edited footage, or you do a mix. All that matters is that you are confident in what your fucking face looks like, and no one else's opinion really matters.

So finally, I am very happy to announce that along with my content partner, I now also have a collab partner, and it is actually one of my very near and dear friends! I hope that I can get them on a podcast at some point. But, we've gone through, like, ups and downs, like, our whole lives since we knew each other in like oh god, like second, first, second grade, like we've known each other for that long. Like, we're both 20 now, and we knew each other when we were like, what, 6,7,8? Like, you do the fucking math. But, we ended up doing dinner the other night, and then, you know, I slept over the night before, and we ended up getting into talking about sex. You know, funny sex stories we have, like the riskiest sex, or the kinkiest sex, or you know, stuff that we like. And they had ended up trying to like, tell me, but not tell me, about OnlyFans, and - I'm gonna let them tell this story, obviously for themselves, but - they pretty much were like, telling me this story about something, and I was like, "Oh, so like, you, this guy, like, saw your pictures? Like, what?". And their partner was pretty much like, "Well, I don't know if you know about this website," and I full on, as I'm, you know, getting my plate for dinner, I turn around, I go, "Oh, OnlyFans?". I sit down, I go "Yeah, I know about it, I have 2 of them". And we just ended up, like, the rest of the night talking about it, and talking about like, how much I've made, or like, how I promote, all of that. And, within the last few days, my friend actually reached out to me and was like, "I want to start my account back up. Like, I want all of your tips, all your tricks, all your advice, like, please fucking help me". And I said, "Hey, we live like, what, 2 hours, an hour away from each other? Like, we can do weekly dinners, and I can, you know, sleep over the night before, bring my makeup, bring some clothes, and do a collab", and they absolutely loved the idea. It, you know, gives them exposure to, you know, my fans, it will give me exposure to theirs, because everyone's got different fans, you know, whatever. And, we agreed on, you know, every 2 weeks. So, every 2 weeks, I will be bringing my makeup bag, and, you know, my content stuff, and their partner will take, you know, film our content, or we will film it ourselves, whatever. And, honestly, the only, like, set rules is, we don't do anything we're not comfortable with, whether like, there's maybe something that they don't wanna do. So, I have, like, a whole list of, between now and my birthday in March, like, stuff that I want us to film. And, it's nothing super, you know, risque, it's just mainly, you know, slumber party type stuff, or certain lingerie, and there are a few things that are nude, if they're not comfortable with that, then we don't have to do those ones. The only rule, and it's just to honestly respect our partners, is no excessive touching. You know, like, leaning on each other, touch on the shoulder, like that's fine. Don't fucking, we're not touching each other's goodies, none of that's happening. But, we realize, like, "Hey, this is a great opportunity, you know". And, I actually made a Tiktok, and it was like, stuff I'm asked as a creator, right? and one of the questions was like, "Who knows about your account?", and I put, "My one friend who is a creator, and their partner". And someone commented, they were like, "You know that's all it takes, is like, you knowing someone, and pretty soon, like, everyone else that you know finds out". And I pretty much was like, "Shit, well, you know, publicity is publicity", like, I was like, "They are also a creator, and none of our content social media, or content stuff, is even remotely connected to our main stuff." We have seperate emails, seperate phone numbers, like, we post somewhat completely separate stuff. The only thing we really post the same is, they will post some pictures, you know, some safe for work pictures, on their main account, and I will post them on my, like, content Instagram, like I did earlier. You know, the other night, they had posted the pictures of us from dinner, and today, you know, with their permission, of course, I was like, "Hey, can I, you know, post the pictures from dinner the other night announcing you as my collab partner?", and they were like, "Yeah, go for it." Like, there's like - unless they figure that connection out somehow - like, we only tag each other's content, you know, content pages. I don't follow my main page, they, I don't believe, follow their main page. I'm pretty sure the only person they follow, as of right now, because they just started everything up, is my content page. All of my social media, I do not follow myself on any of my social media. And, my partner, I hate that he does this, he will look at my content story with his main account. And I tell him he has to stop doing that, because pretty soon, one of his friends is going to end up seeing my stuff, which I don't need. But, I told the person, "We keep our stuff completely separate", and the night of dinner, we all even said, I was like, "You guys are the only ones that know. Like, if I find out that so-and-so is talking about me having a fucking OnlyFans, like, I know exactly who it's gonna fucking come from". And they said the same thing, we all agreed, we are the only ones that know. There are 4 of us that know about that 2 of us are creators, and if anyone else finds out that's in our friend group, we will instantly know who said something. Like, I don't think we really care if our families know. We know, you know, we will get shamed a little bit, or even, you know, disowned, but, we will instantly know. If it was between like, a giant group of 10 people, it wouldn't be that, you know, that easy to figure out. It is only between 4 of us, it's between the 2 creators, and their partners, it would be super easy to tell. But, I did want to just, you know, announce that, have them, I'm gonna try and have them come on the podcast at some point, and just talk about their experience when they first made an OnlyFans, and why they made it, and now, why they're, again, redoing it, and even have a few episodes together. And you guys, you know, find out about what our collab work is, so, I'm super excited for that!

I just wanted to thank you guys for listening to, not only this week's episode, but every week, you know. You guys have honestly really helped boost me up confidence wise, and I just really wanted to tell you guys that I love you, and I appreciate you, and you guys are doing awesome. And also, you know, don't forget to go check out my other pages, you know, they should be linked in the description. Next episode should be Friday, we are back to our regularly scheduled episodes, I just had to, you know, take a little hiatus to work out some personal stuff. But I'm actually really glad with how this episode turned out, where instead of giving tips, and tricks, and advice, I talked mainly about myself, you know, why I made my account, and pretty much, boosting you guys up. And then again, announcing that huge chunk of news. So, yeah, again, next episode should be Friday, no idea what I'm gonna talk about, and I should have an episode with my collab partner coming up soon, I might even do one with my content partner soon, so you guys just stay tuned for that. Have a good day, or night, wherever you are, and I will see you in the next episode.